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Psalm 32:1-2 (ESV)

1 Blessed is the one whose transgression is forgiven,
whose sin is covered.
2 Blessed is the man against whom the Lord counts no iniquity,
and in whose spirit there is no deceit.

Can a sinner in need ever grow weary of these verses?
This one can’t.

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When My Sin Caught Me

When my sin caught me
it caught her too,
caught her family up in my folly and selfishness too,
lies, upon lies, upon lies, upon wrecked lives.
The years would multiply
the lies too.
And the sorrows, O the sorrows!

The losses, the doubts, the secrets,
all of them multiplied too.
the pain, the tears, the fettering memories,
all of those multiplied too.
Regrets. 
I ran out of grey matter to store the regrets.
But when the regrets overflowed into my soul
I cried out to the Infinite to warehouse them for me.
And my cries echoed in the throne room of God.

Light and forgiveness were dispatched to the darkness,
two months before the 19th year began.
You rescued me from the death throes of depression
and confusion, and longing, and hopelessness.
You saw all the wicked choices of my life
all the selfishness, all the pride, all the arrogance,
all the lust for people and stuff and experience,
You saw it all and hunted me relentlessly,
hunted me with lovingkindness and mercy.
You pursued me in faithfulness.
You entranced me with truth.
You stunned me with Your beauty
and melted all my resistance.

The good news arrived,
My sin was exposed, guilt arose, and grace conquered.
Wearied and broken, You restored and bandaged,
repaired and restored my grieving heart.
You made me Your own.
King David’s words become mine.
     “How blessed is the one
       whose transgression is forgiven,
       whose sin is covered.
       How Blessed is the man
       against whom the Lord counts no iniquity”
When my sin caught me
Mercy found me.
I’ve never recovered.
I hope I never do.

Continue on to Psalm 33