I want to lose my life. I want to give it way. I want to be a dead man walking. I want to carry my noose to the tree. I want to die. I want to waste my life on what the world despises. So You can give me life. Oh give me the death that leads to life.
“If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross, and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake and the gospel’s will save it. (Mark 8:34-35)