Strange Food for a Wounded Heart

World-Trade-CenterThis is actually an older piece I wrote four days before the World Trade Center murders on 9/11/01.

This September marked 13 years [now 20 years] since the iconic buildings of the World Trade Center disappeared by the New York skyline and changed American culture for the foreseeable future. It would be impossible to enumerate all the ways that the character of the nation has been impacted by that one event. But here is a piece written just four days before it happened that in an odd way, prepared my soul for life after 9/11.

3 My tears have been my food day and night,
While they say to me all day long, “Where is your God?”

Psalm 42:3 (NIV)

Bayoone TearHow can tears be food? Food is that which sustains life. Without food, the human body withers and dies. The intake of food is a symbol of God’s blessing throughout the Scripture. One day, the redeemed will sit at the wedding “feast” of the lamb and will be nourished by the bounty of His table. Food, adds to life’s enjoyment

Tears on the other hand, are generally thought of as subtracting from life. We know there are tears of joy and gladness. But generally, when we see tears in others we assume some sadness or loss, or hurt, or injury, or betrayal, or disappointment, or longing, or death, or illness, or failure, or fear. Tears don’t add to life, they subtract.

But the Psalmist tells us something different, something that captures our attention. He is in pain. His enemies surround and taunt him. His soul languishes with longing for the presence of God. His spirit thirsts for a living relationship with the Living God. His psyche is downcast—a remarkably descriptive and evocative word for depression (cf. vs. 5).

But in the midst of the turmoil and angst of his situation these startling words arrest our eyes:

“My tears have been my food day and night.”

How can tears be food? Is there a nourishment that flows to the spirit of a man or woman from their tears? All tears? Or just certain types of tears? How can the tears of anguish and loneliness and longing nourish? And how can sustained eating of such food, “day and night”, nourish and sustain a beleaguered heart? I’m not sure I know—but I have some thoughts.

  1. The tears of our sadness and loss drive us to the realization that we need, desperately need, others. That is a good thing.

  2. The tears of our hurt and injury remind us of our fragility and need for God’s redemption and protection. That too is a good thing.

  3. The tears of our disappointment and longing are God’s megaphone, calling our hearts to value ultimate things. That is perhaps our greatest need.

  4. The tears of our failures and fears cause us to run into Him whose arms are always open. That is our only hope.

But perhaps more than all of these, our tears, when they are centered in a righteous defense of God and His truth, which is at least part of the context of Psalm 42-43, nourishes the soul precisely because those tears are all the believer has to hold on to at times. They are the expressions of love and commitment that the loving and committed heart gives when there is nothing else left to give. They nourish because in the heavenly abode of God they are received, remembered and bottled (Ps. 56:8).

And because they are remembered, they will be recompensed. So the righteous, who live by faith (Habakkuk 2:4), are nourished by their tears because they know on the basis of the all-seeing eye of God and the promise of His word that every tear is recorded. Every tear is valued and treasured by the God who is worth standing for when the taunts of unbelievers are mockingly loud.

“Where is your God?” Our tears declare our hope in Him. And in the supernatural and paradoxical plan of God, they nourish our souls. Your tears, every one of them, are precious to Him. Remember that, and comfort yourself and one another with your tears in the midst of the heartache that threatens your soul.

© Marty Schoenleber, Jr. 2001

Go to Psalm 42-43.

3 thoughts on “Strange Food for a Wounded Heart

  1. I think we can sometimes see GOD the most clearly through our tears. Every so often (as much as so many don’t want to admit it) when GOD brings us to points that hurt and cause tears to flow….when we’re down, the only way we can look is up to HIM. It’s not always fun, but GOD is still GOD.


  2. We also see God in our tears of joy, especially as the spirit testifies with our spirit that we are His and we experience the knowledge that we belong to the living God. And, how about the tears of joy shed and shared at Marty and Anna’s wedding. Tears of sadness, loss, hurt, disappointment and failures share a cup with our tears of joy as they find their hope in Jesus.


  3. There is a place and a time in the deep heart of inconsolable sorrow where weeping before God sustains by eclipsing the need for food, replenishing this fallen body and marking the return path to joy.


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